drink wine with me
-- or whiskey if you prefer
drape your arm around me
-- or curl up with your head in my lap
stay up late with me, talking until dawn
-- or go to bed early, as long as you're next to me
keep me on your mind
-- let me know what you're thinking, especially if it's of me
keep me in your heart
-- and promise to wear it on your sleeve
i don’t need to be
the center of your universe
as long as i have the privilege
of existing as a single star
in your galaxy
i’ll have the comfort of knowing
we’re in the same sky
some of my favorite moments
are when we’re lying in bed
right on the edge of sleep
i can trace your outline
memorize your shape
and feel your breath as you
relax into a dream
you’re so tense during the day
these moments of intimacy
remind me just how fragile you are
-- that you deserve the utmost care
i am just a shadow
sometimes ahead -- others behind
maybe just a shiver of darkness
or i could take up the entire room
with my vastness
i’m always there, but never noticed
and disappear completely when
light turns to dark
at times, i lay groundwork,
but immediately get stepped on
as the limelight is taken up
by the overwhelming presence
of more
more than me -- more than a shadow
more than a flat, dark void that is
with you wherever you go
i’m there, but it doesn’t matter
you’re the bright, bright light
and i’m
just a shadow
it’s okay to feel this way
blood does not excuse the
words slapping you in the face
blood does not condone
the behavior -- hypocrisy --
that sears into your heart
it’s okay to step back -- to heal
blood does not have to control you
empty stares meet an empty face
blank feelings -- waiting to be filled in
anger - depression - hell, happiness?
force what is needed, hide what isn’t
it’s all a part of the show, isn’t it?
You take my fallen petals
and try to put them back in place
As I stand here wilting
all my focus is on your face.
Your tongue's stuck out in concentration
as you dig into your own space
I'm able to root into your warmth
and I give in to your embrace.
Do you ever feel trapped
in a never ending cycle
of past memories you'd rather forget?
You're spiraling
falling
gasping for air...
But you can't catch that breath.
You wish you could actually sleep,
but they keep
taunting you.
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Then you open your eyes
and he's still next to you.
His calming breath your reminder
He is now.
You are not then.