AwayYou used to be afraid to lose me,so why am I the one that is in pain from your absence?You used to look at me like I was the only girl you saw,now I'm just another lost in the crowd.You used to embrace me like you never wanted to let go,now you don't come near enough to touch me.You used to say you loved me,but I guess that went away.
You StoleI greatly underestimated just how much I was affected by you leavingMy fear, my nerves, my will to improveGoneIn some ways I should thank youBeing alone has taught me to stand on my ownAccept who I amMake my own decisionsFailure doesn't scare me anymoreMy drive to improve is returningBut this time it's for meNot to try and impress youIf I happen to failI will continue to workBe the bestI wonder how you're doing nowSince there's no me to run toI hope all is wellMeant from the bottom of my heartHoweverNot only did you steal my heartBut you stole a part of meCarefree happinessDays of innocenceAll of itForever yours.
Too Far GoneYour memory smothers meLike a blanket over a fireYou can't save me nowAs I drown in this reverieCan nobody hear me?Or am I silently beggingFor someone to noticeThat I am no longer strong?I want so badly to feel your arms around meTo open my eyes and see yours staring backFeel the comfort of your body against mineYou gently kissing my forehead...But I'm too far gone I would be lying if I said I didn't miss youBut I know we're not good for each otherI know going back to youWould be setting myself up for painYou should know that this was a very difficult decision to makeChoosing to finally let you goTo be on my ownBe free
The Little ThingsThe way he would cup my face in his hands when he pulled me in for a kiss.How well we slept when we were next to each other.The way he would rub his thumb across my hand when he was holding it."The little things," in reality, are not little.They're what make you fall in love in the first place.What you hold on to when it's gone.These moments, these memories are what flood your brain at 2 am.You try to silence your thoughts and get some sleep, but you can't.Because the people who hurt us the most are the ones we tend to cling to.
GhostThe dream shatters around meLike a broken mirror.Looking at the wreckage,My reflection unrecognizable.A broken image.A broken heart.I'm cut by the shardsAs I try to piece it back together.My blood sprinkles the surfaceLike a red rain.The mirror is whole again.What's left of the dream.I look at my reflection,And tears finally begin to fall.
ShardsThe dream shatters around me like a broken mirror.Pieces of you surround me, but nothing seems to be clear.I'm still cleaning up the mess you made.You should have put down your fear,You could have stayed.I'm done chasing.I've stopped running.Have you even noticed that I'm walking the other way?I'm cut by the shards of what's left of who you were.Red tears stain the surface while the world is in a blur.
You Changed EverythingWaking up to see your faceIs my favorite way to start the day.Knowing my reality is as good as a dreamMakes me grateful for how we got this way.I was scared,But I don't think you could tell.I decided to take the plungeAnd immediately, I fell.Your arms feel like home.Welcoming my body into a comforting embrace.You've left an impression on my heart,A permanent mark I can't erase.We share each other's happinessAs well as the pain.But we both remember what's important,Like when we're kissing in the rain.I was drowning,And you brought me to safety.I wasn't sure I was ready,Then you changed everything.
I AmI am single,but I am loved.I am not a genius,but I am intelligent.I am not breathtaking,but I have beauty.I am not a saint,but I am kind.To the world,I am not perfect.But for someone,I am.
Gradually FallingMaybe it was when you noticedhow well your hand fit in his.Or how his eyes light uplike the starswhen he smiles.It could have been whenyou realized that his happinessmakes you equally as happy.It's possible that it happenedwhen you started feeling athome in his arms.Or when a twin sized bedfelt huge in his absence.Maybe there wasn't a specificinstance when it happened. Maybe it was a bit moregradual than falling.Like waiting for a phototo finish developingrather than using a smart phoneto capture the moment.Regardless of when or how,it still happened.You fell.
Colors BleedAs I gaze into the mirrorA vibrant visage screams to be freed.I start to see myself much clearerAs I watch my colors bleed.Now the world looks so abstractSurrounding me, the absence lay.All quite contrived, to be exactWhy did the colors fade away?My footprints stamp the ground in tealBefore they wither into dust.A monochromatic bestialIs tarnishing my skin with rust.My crimson hands have lost their touchMy amber hues have been diluted.My emerald eyes don’t see that muchI feel my spectrum is polluted.Then I spot a lavender trailLike a beacon amidst the void.It shows me life can still prevailAnd not all colors are destroyed.With my colors all but deadI found what I’d been searching for.With much avail, the trail had ledMe to a girl of colors yore.Her eyes dripped shades of indigoThat swirled with skin of harvest gold.She exhaled with a pinkish glowYet her demeanor felt so cold.With silver hair, and vacant stareShe poured out in a wistful plea.My
Love Within Walls Of Hate Filled Heartsroses adorned with thorns, be warned that everythingbeautiful, holds a barely controlled darkness insideit hides a horror untold and speaks in tongues soboldly similar to its opposing side,sometimes it’s hard to find out, what is what.how do you know when to leave well alone and keep what’s shutaway, locked behind closed doors.with a war raging inside, looking into chained drawers,to a certain degree you can see, the truth between the linesthat love isn’t always the kind you find in movieswhere the sun’s rays cloak lovers in a lasting gold, holding them closewhispering sweet words and praise, with hearts beating so fastlike horses in a race a quick and unsteady paceBoom pauseBoom pause Boom pause…take your cheap perfume, take your “Honey, I love you”’sand go get a room, and then you can resume your attempt to consumeeach other.don’t cry when it’s over, just another memory of a distant lover"Mommy, sit
THE GREATEST SORROWWhat is the greatest sorrow?A lovers broken heart,The destitute starvation,A mother in mourning,The lonely tears,Nothing but sadness.We bemoan the past,Worry about the future,Curse the present,Fearing to fail,Dying alone.Yet none is deeper than silence,The piercing quietude,A desperate emptiness,The stark nothingness,No sorrow is greater,A lovers silence.
Love is...LoveIs likeA roseSo delicateSo beautifulBut adornedWith sharpThornsLoveIs likePoisonA poisonThat kills youSlowlyAnd there isNo antidoteLoveIs likeGlassFragileBut itsShardsCan killYouIn a briefMonent...
Behind and aheadThe shadows of the pastRight behind meThe foggy futureRight ahead of meI can turn backI can move forwardOr I can stay hereForeverWhat should I do?What's the right choice?All I knowIs that I'm not aloneIn this labyrint called life
My mind at 3 A.M.Pouring rainA sleepless nightConfusing thoughtsDancing in my mindAn addiction to hold backA hope to cherishDarkness is all aroundBut somewhere the light still shinesThe past is too vividThe future is too foggyThe present is a battleA battle I must win
Siren's CallWhat was wrong is right,Now there's more thanBlack and white.All these feelings insideAnd I just can't decideWhich one to act on.I'm not a bad kid,But no angel would doWhat I did.All these thoughts in my headSaying I'm better off deadCan't all be lying.I want my old addiction,All the blood fromThe affliction.All the pain in my heartTelling me to tear apartMy veins.It calls to me at night,Telling me to do itAnd it's right.All these emotions I can't takeAre going to makeMe crack.
.you should haveemerged with life; yourlittle roots should haveclutched the soil in theirtiny white fists, andgrowni did not mean to trampleyou, i did not mean tolet my body killyour body
.misery lovescompany aslong as it'son his termsand i've abetter chanceof winningif i just playby the rules
I Love Her.I hold her hand tightlyTaking care to make sure she is safeLoved and valued, she is more a woman than IShe calls me her guardian angel.I protect her from the cruel worldThat destroyed me and my dreams.Shielding her from all the pain around,Letting her grow at her own pace until she is ready.But soon I will have to step back,Holding my breath hoping she won't be crushedShe sees the world in it's true light and soarsAs I'm left on the ground, my wings far to broken to fly.I love her,So I let her go.
She.Opening my eyes to youSmiling and stroking my hairI feel a sense of peace wash over meI'm so terrifiedTo let you closeBut how much longerCan I pretend to not feel for you?I pray once you knowYou will let me stay in your life.And I pray once she knowsshe won't hate me for how I feel about you.
TrustGlancing up at you I smile knowing everything will be okay now that you are here. You open your arms calling me into them quickly. And for a moment everything is right. You take my hand and lead me away from the crowd allowing us to speak to eachother. We share small stories before diving into the issues at hand. You get defensive but I can tell you are holding back to keep me smiling. I reach over and hold your hand in mine showing you that no matter what, I will be here. We ramble on about anything and everything until a bell calls us to attention bringing us back to reality. We walk nearly hand in hand the way back and you keep close to me. Protecting me from everything that might be thrown my way. I lean into you for support as others throw mocking glances our way. You brush them off easily and I follow your lead. Before you go off to your class you pull me close to you again and hold me. I hug you back wishing I could feel this safe everysecond of the day. You look me in the eyes
Beautiful.They say I’m beautifulBecause of the way my crystalline heart reflects light off its fractured surfaceWell, that isn't a reflectionIt’s rejection of the light because it’s all too much to handleThrow myself away into the dark without even a candle‘Cause I don’t want to recognize all the pain I’m inOr realize the truth behind what I am or who I've beenAnd I tried to make things right but I just keep on making wrongI never listened to the angel on my shoulder when she calledI count my tears like they’re experienceAnd my scars like they’re mysteriousAnd that’s a feeling I’ll remember –Watching as you leftWatching as you ended what was meant to be foreverAnd I can see it in their eyes; everyone can empathizeSo they say that I’m beautiful because they don’t know what else to say.But if being broken is beautiful, then it’s the ugliest way...
LightLure me inConfuse me with your wordsCalm me with your eyesKeep me close to your sideNever allowing for a stray glanceMy past is on the tableAs is yoursWe accept each other like no two people shouldYou promise you will always stay.Reaching for you once againIn a desperate time of needYour hand slips through mineAnd I fall back into the abyssDarkness consuming meAs the glow of your eyes fade along with your smileWhere are you?I'm lost.I need your light to guide meI let you inNow I'm left empty.
WarmYou pull me into your armsResting your chin on my headI curl against youAnd we breath togetherYour warmth spreading through meRadiating like a fireI love every secondDeeply breathing in your smellCommitting it to memoryYou shield me from harsh windAnd the loud cheers around usAfter an all too short timeA child calls your attentionYour arms dropI step away ducking my headBack to our ordinary friendshipAfter a perfect embrace.
Happy?Tears streaking my faceAs I reach over flicking off the lightSurrounding myself in darknessNever again will I feel the sameNever again will I love the way I use toNever again will I trust youCurling up, resting my chin on my kneesI try to hold myself togetherAs I fall into piecesYou promised you would be thereYou promised to love meYou promised to protect meSo why did you destroy me?Erasing any chance of me being normalRemoving my humanity.You used meYou abused meYou left me for deadWhat gave you the rightTo deem me not good enoughTo be loved?All I wanted was to be safeTo belongTo no longer be alone.Are you happy?Blood runs from my mouthA scarlet smile on your lips.
If Your Not a Last ChildIf you're not a last childYou don't know teasing.You can't know teasing.Jumping around trying to get your things,Getting hit so hard it stings.In trouble for trying to get get back.Rapped on the head with a crack.If you're not a last childYou don't know teasing.If you're not a last childYou don't know fighting.You can't know fighting.Yelling so loud you're ears ring.Slamming doors it seems to badly sing.A scar or two you'll surely get.Running and hiding so you'll be able to sit.If you're not a last childYou don't know fighting.If you're not a last childYou don't know crazy.You can't know crazy.Inside, outside it doesn't matter.Your life is like the Mad Hatter.Mom and Dad running this way and that,And you get stuck with the cat.If you're not a last childYou don't know crazy.If you're not a last childYou don't know love.You can't know love.Playing outside with big brother,Keeping it together.Inside with big sisters,No venom, No hissers.If you're not a la
all of your lives have been addictsmy cathas turnedmy front porchinto a graveyardas if to say:this is what we needbut tonightshe tried to lick my clawsback to hands& I said to her:"I do not have 9 livesto spend on the bathroom floorwith 13-hour insomniacan't we just kill the mockingbirdspull the concreteout of our throats& get this dyingover withalready"butshe's got 8 lives down& doesn't answer questions twice
I Wish It Would RainI wish it would rainThat it would wash you awayOut of my skinI wish the clouds would partShine light on realizationWhat I could beI wish there was a rainbowAn arc of brilliant colorsA sign to give me hope