This isn't meant to be harsh at all, I've just realized a lot of things in the past few weeks and I can't continue to chase someone who doesn't love me anymore. After doing it for so long I guess I just got used to it and then one day I realized that I wasn't in love anymore. I do love him, just not in the same way as I would in a relationship.
This took me a good week to write instead of 10 minutes like every other thing I've written the past few months. There will probably still be more posts like this, because I can be a sad person, but not near as often. I am very happy with life right now