Beautiful Contradiction

One of my favorite places to be
Is also my worst fear
All the life I see
Is shadowed by the death here

The waves call me
Begging me forward
Into the sea
Only to drag me downward

What a beautiful contradiction
It's hard to tell the difference
Between death and life
Day and night
Sinking to the bottom
It was you, not them
Beauty turns to scars
Can't erase these marks
Save me from what I've done
Save me from the monster I've become

Swallowed by the ocean
I'm calm, I'm calm
My heart is broken
This is how I move on

It's better this way
I'm out of the picture
No longer causing you pain
Thinking of you now
A tear rises to the surface